You Know What? I Need You. Reflections for Friday

You know what? I need you.

Life is happening fast around here. I have decided I need to take time out to remember what happens between the scheduling and exhaustion of everyday life and just reflect. 

This week, you know what I realized? I need you.

I have the honor of being a coach, a mom, a mentor, a leader, and a teacher in some capacity everyday. 

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Most of the time, my mind is consumed by what my particular “team” needs at that moment. I am motivated by the fact that they need me. However, as I look at this week in particular, I can see that I need the people around me as much as they need me. The people I serve–both seen and unseen, including you Reader friend–also serve me often without my acknowledgement.

I know this is not a profound or new thought, but explore this simple moment with me.

 I need every person who comes in and out of my life to help shape and reveal who I am. My volleyball team may need this Coach to guide and develop them but I need someone to inspire and someone to whom I can impart my love and knowledge of the game. My kids need me (they would be dirty, naked, and pitiful without me, right?), but I truly need them (I’d be so much more selfish, impatient, and love-deprived without them, right?). As I check down the list of other relationships I have, the more I see I am as much the benefactor as I am the nurturer. That is, if I take the time to allow that revelation to sink deep.

This kinda deflates the power of my adult pity parties. Playing the caretaker-martyr doesn’t give as much satisfaction if I realize the incredible amounts of gifts that I receive as I give. Can I really be thankful for the aggravation and frustration that some relationships bring with them? Yes. 

Not only can I be thankful, but I can also be humble in knowing that you may need me, but, you know what, I need you, too

Take your moment today and stay,

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You Know What? I Need You. Reflections for Friday

You know what? I need you.

Life is happening fast around here. I have decided I need to take time out to remember what happens between the scheduling and exhaustion of everyday life and just reflect. 

This week, you know what I realized? I need you.

I have the honor of being a coach, a mom, a mentor, a leader, and a teacher in some capacity everyday. Most of the time, my mind is consumed by what my particular “team” needs at that moment. I am motivated by the fact that they need me. However, as I look at this week in particular, I can see that I need the people around me as much as they need me. The people I serve–both seen and unseen, including you Reader friend–also serve me often without my acknowledgement.

I know this is not a profound or new thought, but explore this simple moment with me.

 I need every person who comes in and out of my life to help shape and reveal who I am. My volleyball team may need this Coach to guide and develop them but I need someone to inspire and someone to whom I can impart my love and knowledge of the game. My kids need me (they would be dirty, naked, and pitiful without me, right?), but I truly need them (I’d be so much more selfish, impatient, and love-deprived without them, right?). As I check down the list of other relationships I have, the more I see I am as much the benefactor as I am the nurturer. That is, if I take the time to allow that revelation to sink deep.

This kinda deflates the power of my adult pity parties. Playing the caretaker-martyr doesn’t give as much satisfaction if I realize the incredible amounts of gifts that I receive as I give. Can I really be thankful for the aggravation and frustration that some relationships bring with them? Yes. 

Not only can I be thankful, but I can also be humble in knowing that you may need me, but, you know what, I need you, too

Take your moment today and stay,

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On the Me{n}U: My Horrible Mommy, Life-changing Moment

It happened. I planned for it. I practiced for it. I dreaded it. I hoped I would never have to face it. I feared every time I heard it happening to someone else.

But a horrible moment happened to me anyway.

I lost my five year old daughter at a water park!

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…thankfully, only for a moment.

But it is a moment that will last forever in my memory. I can close my eyes right now and relive the panic. Chest tightening as if embraced by King Kong. Pulse racing faster than an Olympic sprinter. Flashes of what if scenarios playing fast forward in my head…the worst scenarios a mother could think of. Praying like a madwoman both in my heart and on my lips to Almighty God in a way I never ever want to do again. All other faces blurred into nothingness as I searched for that one precious face that meant everything in that moment. A five minute moment felt like forever.

Have you had that moment?

A sliver of time that would change the course of your life afterwards forever. I know you have. Some are fantastic. One minute no baby, the next minute, BOOM! parenthood. One minute, high school student, next minute POW! Graduate.

Some are absolutely foul. A loss. A goodbye. A death.

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Our greatest and worst moments marker our lives. They give definition and character to the story of our existence. My story, your story, is highlighted by our moments, whether we like them or not. And as much as I would love to erase the moment my daughter was lost from my memory, it is a part of me now and will be always. To someone at that water park, I am the mom who could not keep track of her daughter and irresponsibly lost her kid. (Ok, so it didn’t happen quite like that. But they don’t know that. She didn’t wander off. She just didn’t hold hands and in her following could not see us anymore. In that split second of panic, a guard asked if she was lost and took her to the security room just that fast. We were literally two feet away, but she couldn’t see us, so she was lost. And yes, I am STILL embarrassed by that fact.)

How do we embrace the moments in our lives that depict us negatively?

How do we make peace with the memories that reveal such dark times in our lives? What do we do if those memories outshine any good that we have ever encountered? I don’t profess to have the only wisdom on this matter, but I do know what helps me.

I try to remember that: moments

  1. Life is a journey. I can’t have ups without downs. And if I did, life would be dull

  2. Negative moments fuel the positive ones. If I can make it through, the joy that is to come will be that much sweeter.

  3. My worst moments connect me deeply in my relationships with others and with my Savior God. I am forced to be humble, to be vulnerable, to trust, and to receive outside of myself. What a great gift trouble can give if I can view it as such.

  4. Trials of life chip away at the rough and insensitive parts of my life and make me a better listener, more compassionate, more empathetic, and more humble. It’s a tool I can use in my life.

When I can remember these in the midst of sour moments, I can not only withstand them, I can incorporate them into memories with a deep respect.

If I can do that then you can choose to do that, too, because Me {n} U, we’re no different! We both have choices to make. Our circumstances may be different, but the power to choose is always ours.  And if we choose well, we can embrace lifetime changing moments and continue to remain

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